Its been almost 4 months and i have tell sometime in july ..its been so hard trying to stay strong. just knowing that Tj is over seas drives me crazy. latey he has been calling and emailing me alot. this has helped me alot with dealing with this deployment. the more i hear from him . the happier i get. i wish most of my friends could help support . and help out with the care packages. Some people dont even notice that we have people over seas fighting for us and it drives me crazy. Im counting down the days for Tj to come home,so is he. Im so excited for him to get home. i wanna cuddle up on the sofa and eat ice cream watching family guy ... even though he isnt here right now. im falling more in love with him as the days go by. ive been surrounding myself with pictures and things that remind me of him. i write him a letter everyday. i know its crazy but i get excerise going to the post office and home. & he loves getting my love letters. im so excited for tjs and my future. i love him dearly.

love you babe.

well this month is the month i have not been looking forward to. and now its here and i really dont know how to act about it. the Love of my life thomas is leaving this month & im just not sure how i feel about this situation. 5months without him its crazy to think about. my new bestfriend will be the mail box waiting for his letters to arrive in the mail. not hearing his voice wondering if he is okay every hour of the day. this is a whole nother stress . a part of me thought i would never experince this. yet here i am. i will be confedent in my man. i will try and stay strong. because when hes home my life starts & i hate waiting for his return but its worth it in the end.

thomas i love you come home

So i think its save to say ive actually fallen.

in love with him. his charm is differnt from others. i havent quite figured him out yet.but all i do know is that he has my heart. and it drives me crazzy i cant believe i could fall like this after everything everyone else put me through.

from every angle this looks perfect. i dont mind the distance it makes us stronger.but i cant believe how much we both love eachother its rediculous but i blame him its his flaut. lol

i just hope everyone lets us be and stays out of it.

and ppl are starting to notice how i dont go out and party nomore.

why because i actually care for my relationship.

iloveutj